Out of the depths I cry to you, O
Lord.
Lord, hear my voice!
Lord, hear my voice!
Of all the emotions that wring the heart, surely there is
none that touches us more deeply than grief. In the Bible we find numerous
pictures of it: in the aged Abraham mourning and weeping at the side of the
lifeless body of his wife Sarah. In Jacob holding in his hands the blood-soaked
cloak of his son Joseph and crying aloud in inconsolable anguish, “It is my son’s
robe!” In King David, learning of the death of the rebellious Absalom in battle
and wailing, “O my son Absalom, my son, my son Absalom! Would that I had died
instead of you, O Absalom, my son, my son!”[1]
Half a century ago, in what is the most personal of all his
books, C.S. Lewis recorded his feelings of deep sorrow following the death of
his wife, Joy Davidman:
No one ever told me that grief felt so like fear. I am not
afraid, but the sensation is like being afraid. The same fluttering in the
stomach, the same restlessness, the yawning. I keep on swallowing.
At other times it feels like being
mildly drunk, or concussed. There is a sort of invisible blanket between the
world and me. I find it hard to take in what anyone says. Or perhaps, hard to
want to take it in. It is so uninteresting. Yet I want the others to be about
me. I dread the moments when the house is empty. If only they would talk to one
another and not to me.
There are moments, most unexpectedly, when something
inside me tries to assure me that I don’t really mind so much, not so very
much, after all. Love is not the whole of a man’s life. I was happy before I
ever met [her]. I’ve plenty of what are called ‘resources’. People get over
these things. Come, I shan’t do so badly… Then comes a sudden jab of red-hot
memory and all this ‘commonsense’ vanishes like an ant in the mouth of a
furnace.[2]
Today in our Gospel reading we also come face to face with
grief. This morning’s passage opens mid-way through the story of Lazarus. Jesus
has just arrived in Bethany. When Lazarus’ sister Martha learns the news that
Jesus has come, she rushes out to greet him. But she cannot hold her feelings
of questioning and perhaps not a little resentment within her. And so her first
words to him are, “Lord, if only you had been here, my brother would not have
died.”
Jesus waited
Now if we have read the earlier part of the chapter we know
that Martha and her sister Mary had gone to the trouble of sending Jesus a
message about Lazarus’ illness some days before, well in time for Jesus to have
come to Bethany while their brother was still alive. Nevertheless, Jesus had
delayed his departure for two days, and now Lazarus was dead and buried.
We have to credit Mary for her forthrightness in her words
to Jesus. So often it is a temptation (for me at least) to hide my real
feelings from God. Far more often than I care to admit, my prayers tends to
skim along the surface of my life. I am not inclined to share with God my
deepest hurts and disappointments—and certainly not to blame them on him!
Yet no doubt there are times for all of us when we are
tempted to ask, “God, why couldn’t you have done something?” “Why could you not
have acted?” And I think those are perfectly legitimate questions to bring to
him. One of the repeated prayers of the Bible is, “O Lord, how long?”
How long, O Lord? Will you forget me forever?
How long will you hide your face from me?
How long must I bear pain in my soul, and have sorrow in my heart all day long? (Psalm 13:1,2)
How long will you hide your face from me?
How long must I bear pain in my soul, and have sorrow in my heart all day long? (Psalm 13:1,2)
How long, O Lord? Will you hide
yourself forever? (Psalm 89:46)
O Lord, how long shall I cry for
help, and you will not listen? (Habakkuk 1:2)
How long, O Lord, will you look on? (Psalm
35:17)
My soul is in great turmoil, but you,
Lord, how long? (Psalm 6:3)
It was not for lack of faith that Martha came to Jesus with
these words. Quite the opposite: for a moment later she is making one of the
most profound statements of faith in all of Scripture, “Lord, I believe that
you are the Messiah, the Son of God, the one coming into the world.” It was her
very faith in Jesus that gave her the freedom to come to him in that way.
Throughout this Lenten season we have been opening our
services with the words of Jesus from Matthew 11:28, “Come to me, all you that
are weary and are carrying heavy burdens, and I will give you rest.” And the
apostle Peter echoes, “Cast all your anxiety on him, because he cares for you”
(1 Peter 5:7). And so with Martha we have the freedom to respond to Jesus’
own gracious invitation to come to him with our sorrows and disappointments,
our hurts and even our anger. “Lord, if only you had been here.”
Jesus wept
Moments later we hear the same words again, not from Martha
but on the lips of her sister Mary. And this time John tells us in verse 33 that
Jesus “was greatly disturbed in spirit and deeply moved”. As happens not
infrequently in the Bible, it is hard to convey the depth of emotion that John
is portraying in this verse. The word rendered “greatly disturbed” was
originally used of horses. It means “to snort”. Elsewhere in the New Testament it is translated “to scold”, “to
censure” and “to warn sternly”. It is used of the guests at Simon’s table when the
woman poured her precious ointment over Jesus’ hair. Mark tells us that his
guests scolded her—literally “snorted at her” (Mark 14:5).
If this word were not enough, John further describes Jesus
as “deeply moved”. Here the word means literally “stirred up”. We find the same
word being used of the pool of Bethesda earlier in the gospel. Do you remember
how the paralyzed man was waiting for an angel to come and stir up the water
(John 5:4)? Matthew’s gospel uses the same word to describe King Herod when the
wise men told him of the birth of a new king of the Jews (Matthew 2:3). He was
shaken to the core.
Now put these two verbs together and we begin to get the
picture of what was happening within Jesus’ heart. One translator (Rieu) has
rendered it, “He gave way to such
distress of spirit as made his body tremble.” And another (Phillips), “He was
deeply moved and visibly distressed.” Then, two verses later, John tells us
simply and poignantly, “Jesus wept.” We do not see Jesus like this again
until he faces the imminence of his own death in the Garden of Gethsemane.
What caused this
enormous show of emotion on Jesus’ part? Was it sorrow over the grief of these
two sisters, Mary and Martha? Was it the loss of his good friend Lazarus? That
indeed was what some of those present were thinking. Yet I do not believe that
it was either of these things, deeply distressing though they were. In
reference to this passage English theologian Tony Thiselton has written of an “indignation
in principle at what ought not to happen”[3]
and I believe that this accurately describes what was taking place deep inside
Jesus at that moment.
As he stood outside the tomb of Lazarus, Jesus was standing
face to face before the scandal of death. In our fallen world we have come to
terms with death. Yes, we grieve over it when it takes our loved ones from us;
yet we have come to accept its inevitability. For Jesus, in whom was life, and
for the Scriptures, death remains an enemy, a barbarity, an atrocity, an
outrage against creation itself. He came that we might have life—life in all
its fullness.
And so with Jesus we believe in the sacredness of human life—that
life, not death, is God’s intention, God’s gift. In the midst of what Pope John
Paul II described as “a culture of death”, we are called, in the words of
Protestant theologian Ron Sider, to be “completely pro-life”. That may mean
re-examining some of our most basic presuppositions, not only on matters like
abortion and euthanasia, but also on controversial issues such as war, gun
control, capital punishment, access to health care, world poverty and many
others—and it will most certainly mean that we will find ourselves, like Jesus,
being deeply troubled by the death that surrounds us.
Jesus’ word
I have entitled this series of sermons “Conversations with
Jesus”. At this point we come to what is possibly the most remarkable
“conversation” in Scripture. Jesus, still trembling with the emotions that
stirred so deeply within him, walks determinedly to the great stone that has
been rolled across Lazarus’ sepulcher and says, “Take away the stone.” Martha
protests, “Lord, already there is a stench.” (At this point I love the earthier
language of the King James Version: “Lord, by this time he stinketh.”) But
Jesus would not be dissuaded. And so the stone was rolled away; and Jesus cried
out, “Lazarus, come forth!” Then John tells us simply, “The dead man came out.”
“He speaks, and, listening to his voice,
new life the dead
receive…” Sad to say, the time would come when Lazarus would have to die again.
What he experienced that day was not resurrection but resuscitation. It is the last
and greatest of the seven “signs” in John’s gospel; and like all signs it
points to something greater than itself—that even death falls a defeated foe at
the feet of Jesus. “The last enemy to be destroyed us death…,” wrote St Paul.
“Thanks be to God, who gives us the victory through our Lord Jesus Christ” (1 Corinthians
15:26,57).
In the book of Revelation John looked forward to the great
day when the fullness of that victory would no longer be a hope but a present,
all-encompassing reality. Like Lazarus in his tomb, John too heard a loud
voice, this time saying, “See, the home of God is among mortals. He will dwell
with them as their God; they will be his peoples, and God himself will be with
them; he will wipe every tear from their eyes. Death will be no more; mourning
and crying and pain will be no more, for the first things have passed away”
(Revelation 21:4).
Until that day comes (and it surely will), death and grief
both remain ever-present realities for us. There will be times when our faith is
shaken, when we want to scream out from the depths of our spirit, “Lord, if
only…” At those times may we remember that the one who came to bring us life
has won that victory at the cost of his own death. The one who promised Mary,
“I am the resurrection and the life,” was the one who cried out from the cross
for you and for me, “My God, my God, why have you forsaken me?” Surely he has
borne our griefs
and carried our sorrows—a man of sorrows and acquainted with
grief.
[1]
See Genesis 23:1-4; 37:31-35;
2 Samuel 18:33.
[2]
A
Grief Observed, 7,8
[3]
Life
After Death: A New Approach to the Last Things, 7
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